My friend invited me to the cinema to see "Scary movie" if you have the oportunity to go see it...DO NOT

what the actual f whas that, I had never see such a noncense all in one place, my friend said it was comedy, THAT thing was not, I swear, sure it was obsene, I guess some people find that funny, but from my perspective I ...dont have anything good to say about it, and the script was horrible, the charactest explain everiting at the end! people who created this did no get the memo with the "show not tell" rule

Dear Lily

I wonder if I'm doing smt wrong... to alwas be alone, my parents don´t have friend either, well I think they don't.

may be I doing smt wrong, talk to much may be, I wonder if my voice anoys people, I know for a fact thats is loud and strong, or not talk enouhg may be i should invite them to do smt...but nobody whants to be outside with this cold ass weather

Do I care to much? I don't see enyone in my family have the deep conection I crave for and they doesn't seem to care. Do you have lifelong friends? may be give me some advice

Should I learn about other interest I know... but all they talk about is other people lives and I can't care less for what other do, even the famous people, I surely enjoy ther music but I don't care for their personal lives I don't want to be involved, it would make me fell like an stalker

I'm surely no ones first choise, it's been a while since I realised this, I 20 now I was 12 when I finish primary shool and then... nothing no friend of mine ever talked to me again, I can't blame some 12 yo girls, but I don't think I can blame my 18 yo ...classmates? either, I never have such a thing like a social life, never go out, never in the partys, I try to reach out sending mesages or funny vid but it didn't work

I'm worring to much it was just a year and a half sice I meet my newes "friends" I just...It kinda fells like is going to be the same

Hoping to be your fist choice

Gaby

Dear Lily

I neded somewe to vent sice the diary I used to heve get lost it doesnt sem to work just the same with anything else, and I'm still a lil human wich hapens to fell to much for a word that doesnt care

this made me think if the only thing I have holding me back are my dreams and hopes fore the future, I want to travel ya know, I want to see every fuking litle think that this world have and and I want to swim with whales, and bonji jump, and se the auroras, and the glowing sea in ...well I forgot

I hope I wont wake up some random day in my 50 and realiced im living a life that mekes me miserable it wouldn't worth to be alive anymore for that

I don't tink to die is wrong or smt like that, hope that my desire for disapear never gets stronger that my desire to see the world... even if i don't have any plans to achive that

what do you want your life to be? do you want children? I do, but I dont want to be pregnant so I'll adopt some day

Do you belive that is smt after you die? I don't think so, we are being made out of energy, our body will feed the earth and my energy will spred ya know go bac to the cicle

You are my first choice

Gaby

Dear Lily

I was clearly in a mood last time I write, u gotta understand me it's cold I hate the whether, well I dont have that much time to be sad, I have finals coming soon

Music, fod and some good movies cheer me up, i had to watch "the father" I'm making an analisis for my nerocience final exam, it's a good movie kinda confusing but I like the plot it was amaizing, my teacher said it was gonna make me cry but I didn't, hard for me to conect i think

I´m watching "Red, white and royal blue" now, great movie btw i love it, I think you would like it too, i love how it nd and I'm exited especting the next movie "red, white and royal weding" the bar is soo high

What is is your fav movie? mine gotta be "Avatar 2"

Loving you so much I'll cross an ocean to see you again

Gaby

Dear Lily

I was in fact rigth about the things that woried me,since winter vacation started last friday, my so caled friend didn't answear no mesage form me not even the ones about the university, I think that I'm the problem here but idk what is wrong, we were open with each other telling our preblems, we had fun doing other things, I gues thats no enough to want to keep in touch

Is that wierd to seek for deper bonds now days? humans are social creatures after all...

Hoping you have closer friends

Gaby

Dear Lily

I'm going to turn 20 in ...3 days now...I fell like i'm falling behind, I know I don't....may be, but I don't know where I am either, were are you in yout life now? do you fell the same?

I'm peinfully scared to have a 6 to 12 ofice job or smt like that, Currently looking for alternatives, I'm studing psicology but idc if I end up doing smt else, I just want to get to know the world. What do you want for your future?

just the thouth of die without doing anything of that mekes me deaply sad, I don't get to understend how other people don't rush to their wildes deams, for what we all know there is no turning back, mey be I just have the privilegy to talk like that, some people get to survive rather than live.

I don't know how to face the future, hope I'll find out soon

Hopping you have a clear path in front of you

Gaby